HURT (Molding) FROM GOD - HURT FROM MY WIFE

Just Because I am Hurting, Frustrated and Don't know what to do; that doesn't mean that You don't require or have a need for me to hurt right-now in order for You to accomplish something in or through me that You need to accomplish.

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The Hurt that You-God Allow to be produced because You are renewing my mind to match Your Mind and Your Words; You don't want me to respond negatively to the "feeling" the "emotion" of the hurt! Because I am only hurting because I am used to responding my-way (satan's-way) and You are providing an experience that will give me the opportunity to respond Your-way and I don't understand it!

You said, in all of my ways and responses to get an Understanding, so that this change in my way of thinking doesn't produce a hurting emotion but the experience will produce a feeling of satisfaction because I responded how You want me to respond or rather I allowed You to respond for me (that is the greater understanding). So in essence, when I respond to the hurtful feeling how You want me to respond (by changing the thought to Your Thought) It satisfies me and You. I am satisfied only because I satisfied-You, by Obeying You. My flesh wanted to lash-out at my spouse but my Spirit OVER-RODE that feeling and I obeyed You...that produces a feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment when I do it and respond Your-way over and over....

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NOW;

And in the same way, The hurt I feel that is caused-by or a result of my spouse cheating or leaving me, You don't want me to respond that hurt either or to my spouse either.

God, Your hurt, You molding and changing me "feels like" and looks like rejection. Because It is rejection. You are rejecting what my flesh wants to do. just like the rejection from my wife. It hurts, but God, You say don't respond to what I see, don't respond to what I feel, don't respond to what she is saying or how I am feeling.

God, You want me to respond to Your Word only. You actually want to respond for me!

You want me to live and respond by Your Faith not by my sight, not by my feelings and definitely not because of what she is saying.

Your directions and what You need me to experience feels like rejection also. That is why many reject You and Your ways because Your ways "feel" just as bad as that cheating or rejecting spouse (because You are teaching me how to reject my-flesh and accept what Your Spirit is saying to me)!!!

HOWEVER: I respond based on Your Word! NOT WHAT IS HAPPENING OR BEING SAID ME!

God, You Allowed Jesus to be whipped and hung while You-God, Watched. You had the ability to stop or change the situation. But You Didn't and that is why Jesus asked, why are You, God my daddy forsaking me. He was "humanly" hurting from Your use of Him just like I am humanly hurting because of Your use of me!

God, I know You are watching and You are in this hurting situation with me.. I know, I must know and accept Your Plan and Your Outcome and I must understand that my finite-mind will never understand why You do what You do the way You have done it and are doing it!

Even as "I know this", and I have accepted Your Teaching and Your Word and Your Ways,,,,, however, my flesh still wants this hurt to end and my "flesh" wants some answers that You are simply not providing right now!!!! You want me to simply Know and Trust that You are in-control of this whole situation.

BUT AND HOWEVER, I THANK YOU, I THANK YOU, BECAUSE YOU SAID, YOUR GRACE WOULD AND IS SUPPLYING ME WITH THE PATIENCE, JOY AND PEACE WITH THIS THORN, IN THIS HURT, THAT YOU ARE ALLOWING, That is strengthening me, molding-me and shaping me into the priceless vase, the precious diamond, the solution and the serum that You need me to be for this next assignment, situation, person(s) and season of my life

I am adjusting, remembering and pulling-out Your Peace in this hurt by responding and thinking about the situation the way You said to think about it.

God You are a Redeeming, a Restoring and a God of Family and Marriage.